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NewBeginnings22
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Posted: Sat May 17th, 2008 04:40 pm |
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Money manifestations have turned upstream for me today. I expected an insurance reimbursement to my account yesterday that wasn't there when I checked today. Then I was expecting a first unemployment check, after I fulfilled instructions from the states's Job Services person by dropping off the two forms they needed by Thursday. In today's mail was a denial for UI.
In the first case, I panicked a bit but then I wrote a note to my UM to handle that reimbursement to my account over the weekend, so that it's there on Monday. I truly felt better after doing that. Then I got this letter, and a feeling a dread just came over me. I know this feeling tells me that I am not aligned with my IB and that I need to switch over to down stream thoughts. I thought for sure that I was going downstream in expecting and being grateful that both of those things would happen and I could feel that happiness Now I guess I am quesitoning whether I was really in the right "feeling" place at all. I always feel a little antsy before making sure the insurance reimb was in my checking account, but as I check I just keep saying to myself "it's there. It's done".. and it has been. I experience the same thing this time, and it wasn't. I was able to turn this over to the UM this morning, but I think the letter about UI just turned both upstream. I had already assigned my UM to take care of the UI issue (I recently started a to-do list on my pc for my UM, and I add to it when I need to; thanking the UM each time for the great job they do and adding any requests..)
Open to suggestions to turn both back downstream today.
Thanks,
Nancy
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Scott
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Posted: Sat May 17th, 2008 11:49 pm |
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NewBeginnings22 wrote: I thought for sure that I was going downstream in expecting and being grateful that both of those things would happen and I could feel that happiness Now I guess I am quesitoning whether I was really in the right "feeling" place at all.
Nancy,
The good news is that there's no such thing as the "wrong" feeling place. You just are where you are and it's fine. Making it "not fine" is what creates even more consternation in your vibration. It's what Abraham refers to when talking about there being something wrong with "being here" when you want to be "over there."
Also, at the risk of over simplifying, the work is just about choosing better feeling thoughts, one thought at time--making the best of it or the worst of it. Looking at "what is" and condemning yourself for a) what you're feeling and b) what you've created will feel bad because, as you pointed out, your Source will never join you in those thoughts.
It's obvious to me that you know just what to do. We all get caught up in those momentary, temporary cases of "what-is-itis." Thankfully, "what is" is just the jumping off point for what's next. In Abraham-ese, "it doesn't mean diddly-squat!"
Be easy on yourself, Nancy. It sounds like your living life like the rest of us, sorting through the contrast, deciding what you don't want and then knowing what you do want. It's always about closing the gap. And again, as you know, the only way to close the gap is to come into alignment with your Inner Being.
Trusting that your VE is ready for you,
Scott
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ChristinaofTX
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Posted: Sat May 17th, 2008 11:49 pm |
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Hi Nancy,
Probably by now you are headed downstream once again -- I am visualizing that for you!
For me, it helps me to get totally off the subject and focus on feeling good in any other area -- whenever a particuarly challening subject comes up such as the UI denial letter. I tell myself that all is well and things are going to work out -- and I find any other thing that feels joyful to focus on. [my cats are a real source of joy to me and so doing anything with them or for them lifts me considerably]
I myself have had a tendency in the past to be really "attached" to specific outcomes and time tables but I've recently been shown that the universe really can deliver much better far more wonderful things to me when I'm having less resistance thru almost any better thought or activity. The simpler the better.
Much Love,
Chris
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NewBeginnings22
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Posted: Sun May 18th, 2008 09:54 pm |
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Thank you both. I ended up picking up a book and reading. It's the only way I can totally switch my mind off from thinking and analyzing my thoughts and feelings. I guess I am judging my feelings; because I am paying so much attention to my thoughts, when I feel the contrast now I sometimes panic because I don't want to draw in more of that. I also forget that I don't have to figure it all out - after years and years of thinking I had to do it all, I have to remind myself to release the "hows" to the universe.
I'm a little better today. We spent some time with our nephew who is 22 months old. He always lifts my spirits because he's so funny. He's got some words down, but most of the time you watch him play and wonder what language he's speaking...baby-eze, I guess! But he's got the important words down - Like "momma", "eat", "play", "ball", "NO"....and today he was running around saying CAKE, CAKE! This little boy has not met a food he doesn't like. He's got a smile and laugh that lights up a room - and that really helped today.
Thank you again for your help! This board is such a great place with great people who have taught me a lot.
Nancy
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