Hi guys-- I feel like such a good girl right now-- I'm finaly getting involved in an online community thats good for me! Positive and all that. I've been involved in some blogs and forums that were rather less so.I'm so over that now it feels childish.Useless.
Sooo yeah I'm definitely a big fan of Abe.This system of thought really resonates with me.And its so simple overall.Things make so much more sense to me now.And I gotta say one of my favorite things about it is that I can finaly allow myself to be selfish! Part of that is just life. There are some events recently in my life that have been very difficult and upset me but I am almost grateful for them because seeing how little anyone else cares about what I want, how determined other people have been to impose their particular agendas on me --it has freed me. I care alot less now what anyone else thinks or wants from me.
I used to worry and think I had to watch myself partly because I had parents that were severely disconnected and quite focused on training me away from a relationship with my IB. I was taught to think that I was bad a difficult child and I wanted so badly to be good but now I realize I don't have to be so careful about it--I am good.I am a worthy person.Its time to focus on what I want.No one else is gonna do it for me. If I don't learn to get what I want I could end up like the vast majority of folks looking to others--even little children--to be for them what they ought to be for themselves.